Mood: Upset

I feel like such an awful person and friend. Danny died in January, and I just found out. I hadn't talked to him since around Christmas, and haven't seen him since before that. I feel like an asshole.

I wish I hadn't turned from him when Carly died. I wish I wouldn't have ignored his texts when I found out he was shooting heroin. I wish I would have stood up for him when the jackasses I barley associate with started calling him 'heroin hero'. Heroin or not, he was still the goofy kid that was convinced I cut my hair short just to look like his forearm tattoo and worked for 2 years to be the perfect Edward Scissorhands on Halloween.

I liked that he always had weird things in his car. Like bunny suits and birth control. I liked that he played beer pong with wine. I liked that he always had a camera in front of his face, and would take pictures no matter how many times you told him to stop. I liked that he vaguely looked like Robert Smith. I liked that he never made me the bass he promised, even though I told him for years that I was mad. I liked that no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't go a week without running into him somewhere randomly. I liked that he always complained about hating Walmart, but when he was promoted into the photolab, he cried. I liked that he used to send me Myspace messages monthly to update me on his life, from a third person point of view. I like that he took his own life with a gun, because he always told me I was a loser for O.D.ing.

I'm going to miss him.
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i am really excited about the prospect of us playing together! so much so, that i've been playing guitar alllllll day (instead of going to work) i am able to play almost all of the sing sing deathouse album, so ive been running through that today. i dont know what direction you'd want to go musically, but i am pretty open to anything punk / ska / alt .. id rather not venture into the realm of hardcore emo screamo, etc though .. :p but anyway, let me know if you are interested in the bass .. i was planning on screen printing it with old traditional tattoo designs, but if you are interested, i could do a punk theme (brody, bullets, guns, etc) .. let me know what ideas you might have .. you can reach me at 7178734921, or, as always, via myspace .. regards, daniel

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